i hate the rain.

today is one of those days that when looking back on, i won't miss.







so now it's actually official.
my uncle called.
wanna know what he had to say?

my brother got married.
and my sister had a baby.

and they didn't even tell us.

i hate when people say that blood is thicker than water...because it's not always true.
my brother and sister are both immature assholes.

then end.

ace of cakes keeps me awake.

guru is my new favorite word.

this is where i plan to be...

within the next year.






the Browers are moving to Belgium in the next couple months...and I'm going there...even if I have to go by myself!

one tasty dress.

i can't sleep.
i have to wake up in four hours.
i have resorted to drinking wine from the bottle just to pass out.





dear god.

blood is thicker than water?

so i'm sure some of you didn't even know i had a half brother and a half sister...probably because they are stubborn and immature. but my brother eddie is running for city council again...and he has a website. it's kinda funny how similar he and my dad are.

www.vote4edward.com






kbye.

i'm stealing "rawr" from ash cause i love it.

I was sick on Saturday...like throwing up all day. And I've felt very off since then. Stupid tummy, I hate you.

but anyway, Jon and Kate Plus 8 is my new favorite show. I love it. It's hilarious...and the kids are so cute. It seems a little lame that my current favorite show is a show on TLC about a family with 8 kids...but it's great.

oh and I miss everyone in Chico.
especially my lover and my two amazing roommates.
I guess it really takes being away from people to realize how important they are. I feel a lot happier lately too. I think being home and rejuvenating has helped a lot. I'm happy and actually very excited to go and have fun in Chico. Not that I love Chico...but I love my friends in Chico. hahaha. k. And I'm very excited for Willow's birthday party. Her mustachio theme is genius. really.


kbye.

yellow.

i love this.

hey

grow up.
eventually things are going to catch up with you.

new year.

So it's officially 2009. woo hoo...
See, everyone is excited about this NEW YEAR...but we have a new year once a year which doesn't make it as exciting as everyone wants it to be. People make their New Years resolutions...which they normally break...because New Years is always just the excuse to put off kicking the habit for another three months...and then that day comes and what do you do?
Well I kicked a habit in the last two weeks...without the thought of New Years...so screw all of you fakers, I did it! Hopefully it sticks...which it will...but if it doesn't, I know I'll hear about it from some of you!
Anyway, I'm not that excited...though I am excited to see if Obama will make it through the inauguration unscathed...and I am very excited for my 21st birthday which is in March (mental note: send me booze!). Speaking of booze...I was talking to Ashmo, Becca, Thomas, Keely, and Tim the other night and we were discussing vices. Everyone has a vice...pretty much. And if it's not one thing, it's something else. So I was wondering why quitting one thing, suddenly led me to wanting a drink with dinner every night (which used to be unusual). So then I realized, it's not the action...it's the feeling it gives me. So instead of just dealing with things and learning to relax on my own, I just picked another vehicle for my self-medication.
I feel like I'm not making sense...so nevermind.
But anyway, I miss Aaron like crazy. And I have no idea why I chose to stay home this long...though I do think it's doing some good. I needed to be out of Chico and at home to rejuvenate. But last night, I was really regretting that decision. I kept saying that kissing our boyfriends at midnight is cute but not necessary, silly really...Well last night as I was on the phone with Aaron yelling "Happy New Year!," I was jealous of Macaire being able to kiss her boyfriend at the special moment. Oh well...there's always next year...and the one after that...and on and on...for the rest of my life...soooo many new years. So many expectations. So many disappointments. Don't get your hopes up people.