jeopardy.

So I was going to go on a rant about...well...some stuff. But I'm pretty content right now so I'll save that for later. Cassie and I went on a little adventure tonight. It was nice. I found something I was looking for...which is nice (walmart sucks). Anyway, then we went to starbucks and I was reminded of how much I missed caramel machhiatos (spelling?). We talked about her moving. I'm not happy about it. I'm actually really sad... I know she "needs" to go but I honestly don't know what I'll do. I know I'm not alone but I feel like having someone around who has known me for a long time will keep me sane. I feel like certain people I know here don't really know me. I mean...they know me and we are particularly close...but I feel like people have gotten the wrong impression of me. I haven't been too happy since I've lived in Chico...and that has definitely translated into my personality and actions. I really hope people don't judge me and my character based on my low times. That would make me sad...cause I'm not normally such an angry person or such a sad person. So for whoever is reading this: I am sorry if I have ever blown up at you...or whatever. That is not me. I always have the best intentions. I am quite loyal...etc. And I feel like my unhappiness in Chico has changed me. So if I'm upset about something, please give me the benefit of the doubt because I am not inherently bitchy, I am probably just going through something hard that I'm too proud to talk about. Anyway, my original point is that if Cassie leaves, I'm going to be really sad. I love her and she is one of my best friends and I really feel like if she goes, we're not gonna see eachother as much....and because of that, I feel like I'll lose a piece of myself. Wow. Now I'm just sad again...great. I'm going to get out of this and watch jeopardy.